once, a gurl cried many tears because a special friend of hers drifted away...
they talked and the guy realized that he cant continue what they are havin bcoz the guy has fallen for someone else...
someone who was exciting, new and interesting...
someone who is always near him and can be with him after the day was over...
to talk about things and spend the night strolling, holding hands and kissing...
someone who doesnt mind getting wet by the rain coz she was carefree...
and she knew the guy would be in constant touch to give out caring words and sweet nothings...
the gurl who cried her heart out was left with no concrete reason as to why...
no shoulders to cry on...
and no one to belong...
the gurl who cried thought that they would make the relationship work, bcoz she didnt know that there was someone else...
so after she cried, she prayed for strength...
and she was almost over the guy for a time until...
the guys mom talked with her and asked for her version of the story...
naturally, the gurl obliged... told the guys mom dat it wasn't her call...
that it wasnt her style...
but of course, the mom encouraged, supported and short of desperate pleading asked the gurl who cried to win her son back again... so everything would be okay again...
the guy would have someone to "belong" to...
and a direction to take and not be lost in "breaking free" and finding his own happiness everywhere...
the gurl who cried was shocked but needless to say, she complied...
she said, "i'll try mommy... but i cant promise anythin... it's so hard to force yourself on someone who doesnt want you anymore..."
the mother was silent...
almost in tears, she said, "try ___... try hard... force him if he wont budge..." then laughed...
of course, the gurl who cried was flattered...
and was challenged to take on the task at hand...
and so, she's with the guy again taking care of him,giving herself without thought for the consequences...
without thought if she were to succeed or fail...
simply bcoz she was a positive-thinker...
she hoped and prayed...
damn it for being so hard...
but she had to grit her teeth and smile until her face hurts...
the time came that the gurl can endure no more...
asked the guy if she still had a place in his heart...
the guy wasnt able to answer...
so again... ouch! for the gurl who cried...
then it was time for a decision...
the gurl who cried told the guy that the breaking free time that she gave was up... he has to decide and give her an answer...
gurl: are you into her already? do u love her that much?
guy: (looking down) yeah, i guess so...
gurl: (hurting but expected the answer) so, this is goodbye?
guy: (nodding) yeah...
gurl: make it louder...
guy: yes...
with this scenario at hand, the gurl picked up her things and was about to leave when their common friends stopped her and just go when there is daylight...
the gurl who cried didnt want to cause any commotion, for she was not in her territory... and stayed...
freaky scenario that it was, the gurl txted the guy to take care of himself, to relax and to not to think of what had happened so the guy wouldnt be burdened and feel guilty...
then... the guy broke down, asked to be taken back... everybody is right except for me... that was his line...
the gurl who cried was so confused... ddnt know if he was sure of his decision this time... she kept on consoling the gurl who cried... to give him another chance so that they'd be together again... to let him learn to love her again... to put a 100% in makin git work...
aghast the gurl was she had to ask... "are you sure this is what you want?" around 3 times...
and the guy said... "yes! this is what i want! juz be there and help me pull this through... don't leave..."
the gurl asked, do you still feel something for me?
and the guy said yes... why would i ask for it to be worked out, why would i come back if there was none...
and so they kissed and made up...
and promised to try their best to make it really work this time...
they talked...they went out...
although the guy cared the gurl was confused if she was still inlove with the guy or was just pushed by different forces... but she tried...
she took in all her pride and dignity and took him back...
one day, the gurl said, i love you... just to see how he would answer...
the guy said, uhm, sorry if im not able to reciprocate... i want to say it when i really mean it...
and so the gurl, hurt as she was, accepted that... she loved him... what would she do?...
and that kept her thinking... why did the guy asked to be taken back when he wasnt even sure of how he felt...
was it because the gurl who cried was convenient?
was it because the gurl who cried was liked by his family and friends and thought she was the right 1 for him?
was it because the gurl who cried... loves him and the someone new is attached but kept giving him mixed signals?
or was it because he pitied her?
up to this day, the gurl who cried is so confused...
still asking...
still wondering...
still getting hurt everyday...
but loved endlessly and didnt ask for anything...
but one day, amidst the guys promise to not reach out for the someone new, the gurl who cried found out that the guy still kept in touch with the someone new...
expressed his heart out publicly but anonymously... hoping that this someone new would pay attention to him... offered to let him take care of her better than the 1 she's currently with...
of course, it hurt... the gurl who cried was saddened but she had to be strong...
for herself, for the guy and for all those expectant family and friends...
that's why the gurl who cried said, "if you really cant find it in your heart to love me again... then dont... dont force it... "
true, brave words but inside she was bleeding... begging for a transplant...
to utter those words were sheer torture... but she had to say it... only to ease the guys conscience and guilt...
what would you do if you were in the gurls place?
to let go and be trampled by pain,confusion and regret?
or to chill and let things take its course naturally... also hoping and getting hurt in the process not knowing wat will happen in the end?
either way, i know she'd be hurt...
one part is saying to hold on... patience is a virtue... the guy was just confused...
but a bigger part is wishin that this would be done and over with... total detachment...
and for that the gurl who cried has to give way... to let go...
no matter how it would hurt...
what would you do if you were in the guys place?
to let your mind choose... the stable one? the one you're supposed to be with?
or to go follow your heart and risk losing something?
either way, i know the guy would be unhappy...
and maybe, the gurl who cried would be able to smile again...
if she'll be sane by then...
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