pain... and selflessness...

have u ever experienced feelin pain that it literally sliced ur heart?
have u ever experienced havin the wind knocked out from under you?
tried to get up but cant...
tried to ignore it but it was constantly there?

how about bein trampled by several things at once? (hands, feet, arms, legs...)
and wat about cutting ur self but u felt numbed...
tried to cope but cant...
tried to shield urself but failed?

how about smilin outsyd and cryin insyd?
how about giving that ignoring look yet ur mad as hell insyd?
i tried... i tried...
wasnt able to help it...

bein a hypocrite?
havin two-faces?
makin lies...
ignoring urself...
just so the 1 involved woudnt suffer as much as you did?
sheltering someone else...
yet leaving urself exposed...

if u havent felt any of this... ur damn lucky...
coz i did, i still am...
and i dont know if i could make it back agen...
whole... not shattered...
for there's nothing definite... they say...